"...even though I don't deserve it"
Another mid-day post, and my first one since the school year started. I suppose that there's much that I could be talking about, like my rampant pre-"first day of school" parties. I guess the only thing to say about that is one can only talk about that which they have experienced.
Layman's terms: the last party this girl saw before school started was her cousin's cotillion.
So this morning, I ended up missing my 7:48 train out of Hanover Park, meaning I missed Anthro lecture; the only class that I would even remotely enjoy today. I figured I'd just take the 8:55 and miss a tiny bit of the first part of Bio. Frankly, the morning didn't start off as well as I would have hoped. On top of missing my train and my favorite class of the day, I'm not even sure that I paid for the right space number this morning. I parked what seemed like miles away from the actual train station, so by the time I got there, I completely forgot what parking space I was. I've been crossing my fingers all day hoping I don't see a parking sticker on my window when I get back tonight.
There I am, sitting dejectedly on the train, by myself thankfully. I don't think I would have wanted to pass on my bad mood to anyone else. We're almost to the city, and we reach the stop for Western Avenue. As I try to lose myself for a bit by staring out the window, something catches my eye. It was what looked like a page of a magazine with an ad on it. Like someone knew exactly what I was thinking, the ad said, "Is there more to life than just this?" I couldn't even begin to formulate my answer before the train pulled away.
I've been thinking about it all day, and sadly I don't have an answer. All I have is hope that there is more to life than just what we see and hear and experience day in and day out. Monotony is good, in a sense. It gives your day sructure and balance, but to live like that for the rest of your life. My reply is this...
I don't know about you, but if there isn't more to life than just this, what do any of us really live for?
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